Tuesday, July 19, 2011


Well anxiety is starting to set in, don't get me wrong I am very excited but I am also scared to death. 

Last night as I was trying to sleep I kept thinking, can I do this?  Will there be enough hours in the day to get everything done from homework to being a mom and running a household?  Will I be able to handle my English 1A class?  Because hubby likes to quiz me on English terms and correct my grammar all the time, can I really do this?  Am I going to finally understand fractions?  My math class is another anxiety issue.  Math is not my strong suit it never has been I just don't get numbers. 

Then I got to thinking about the financial aspect of it all.  I have to get my books purchased at the first of next month.  I have it worked out in my head and I know its going to be okay because 2 weeks later I get my financial aide distribution but its all adding up.

Then I wonder if everyone is going to be staring at me going why is she here?  She is old, she should have done this a long time ago.

I know this is all BS and what not but sometimes those old demons like to sneak in. 

Tuesday, July 12, 2011

Another Step Closer...

I met with my counselor this evening to go over my education plan.  The appointment was supposed to take 30 minutes but we were done in 10.  :)

My counselor said I was well prepared and I knew what I was doing so I did not really need to come in, but it is required. 

Believe it or not I picked the right classes to start with so that was a plus.  He also gave me the degree listings for all 3 Universities that I can attend to get my teaching degree.  So I can get a lot of the classes out of the way and then when I decide on a school I can start taking my transfer classes.  I also found out that all 3 teaching programs are at an accelerated pace and offered online as well.  By the time I get my teaching degree I will be $36,000 in debt but it will be worth it.

I am really excited to be starting this journey.  I have 33 more days until my first day of school.

On August 1st I will order my school books, and apply for scholarships that I am eligible for as well. 

Friday, July 8, 2011

37 Days

Well in 37 days I am heading back to school,  I am excited more then nervous.  I am going to be getting my degree in teaching and if I can swing it my masters in education.

There were a lot of factors that led me to go into teaching, yes I know the pay is not great and every year I will wonder if I will have a job but if I can change one child's life then I have done my job.

I have 2 teachers to thank for guiding me in this direction.  The first one was Joshua's kindergarten and first grade teacher Mrs. Yousfi.  She is an awesome teacher and the kind of teacher I want to be.  She took Joshua under he wing and stood up to everyone when they kept saying no he can not do that and he needs this.  She said no he is a perfectly fine little boy and just needs to be left alone.  He flourished with her guidance and we are now friends.  I was her room mom last year and had a ball with the class.  

The second teacher I have to guide me is Jaxsons old teacher Mrs. Harris she is exactly the teacher I DO NOT want to become.  You see she gave up on my son this year, the going got tough with him and instead of helping him she just gave up and let him flounder.  We had 7 IEP's last year and the straw that broke the camels back was when the school called the police on him.  They were aware of his circumstances and yet they paid no attention to them and tossed him out like garbage. 

So I have 2 fine examples to keep me going while I start this journey and I am excited.

I am taking 15 units for my first semester.  Yes its a lot but one of my classes is an online class on computers so that will not be a problem for me.  When I went to freshmen orientation I was the oldest person there.  I was awkward but I had to do it.  One if the girls there made a comment of, " Isn't she a little old to be going to college?"  Her mom replied with, "Honey college is for everyone."  I so wanted to reply with, " At least I don't have to have my mommy drive me."  But I didn't. 

I am starting out in bonehead math well because lets face it I suck at math.  I can mess up a check register like no bodies business...LOL  So I will be taking a math class every semester it looks like but oh well it will give me a refresher course. 

So that's the start of my journal.  I am going to try and keep it updated as much as possible.   But lets face it while I am a student I am also a wife and mother as well.  So I will be going to school, being a mom, running a household and trying to cram homework in there as well.

It should be a fun and interesting ride.